tulus dri saya

Saya lihat sekeliling saya begitu asyik membelek telefon bimbit. Batang rokok pula dinyalakan satu per satu. Kami hanya ingin pulang, ke pangkuan tersayang. Masing2 mempunyai tujuan tersendiri untuk pulang. Saya pulang kerana saya merasakan kehadiran sya di muadzam tidak dihargai. Lal u sya menyorong beg ini, mengharapkan saya tidak akan menghadapi begitu byk pancaroba yang menghakis kegembiraan saya selama ini.

Those ugly words they cast...

Somethings are better to be that way, even though sometimes you miss the old times but you can do nothing to change and everything looks so blur. There was no reason to turn back past as it was better to be that way. People said, everything happens with a reason. However, just to learn to accept past is difficult ,to face current just took my breath away and future seems to be too hard to describe.

I encounter many problems this semester in Uniten. I am just human not a superhero. I hide my feelings,I smile,I laugh all out. Yet when my defense wall was damaged entirely, I finally broke into tears.

People have their own attitudes but only little know to control their personality. People cast ugly words easily but only little know the word is like a knife. One stab will steal many lives and though the person still alive, it leave a scar. The inner is indeed in pain. Words do can kill. I remember there is one sentece to prove my thought "kerana mulut badan binasa".

Dunia ini saya empunya

Kekejaman dunia semakin buas. Masing-masing ingin tunjuk  lagak. Semua ingin menang .Lihatlah di jalan raya. Lihatlah berita semasa. Inikah manusia sememangnya dilahirkan dengan akal?

dan kini inilah yang bermain di fikiranku...

Dunia ini saya empunya. Saya bebas megikut kata hati kerana saya layak. Saya tidak perlu menyembunyikan diri. Saya hanya perlu meneruskan bernafas untuk kekal disini. Saya tidak perlu terlalu patuh mendengar kata orang kerana saya sendiri mempunyai prinsip. Saya akan teruskan dengan melangkah dijalan yang rata,mendaki bukit bukau dan berlari ke garisan penamat. Sekelilingku bertujuan sebagai pemangkin dan pada masa yang sama menjatuhkan daku.

fikiranku kini diikuti naluri hati...

Tiada larangan yang menghalang sya dari menjadi diri sendiri. Dunia ini sya empunya!

Its a full moon

I used to watch full moon with my mom. I count the star with her. In the total silence, there were only our voice fills in. I miss that moment. I once wrote a novel “The moon & I”. I wrote that novel for my English assignment with Madam Amali. I portrayed myself in different kind in that novel. In matter, I am hoping to be.

In that novel, there is also a poem which I wrote for a scene where Fauzi, (the main character) nearly lost hope. He miss his parents and suddenly there was his lil sister,Josafie to read out loud a poem which his parent wrote for each other. I want to share that poem with you, since today is a full moon.

There was a huge circle in the middle,

It was surrounded by darkness

The shine of it was very powerful

Defending its thrown

The thrown of being prince of the galaxy

It must be singing with the star

Because it was smiling

Smiling to us

The moon change its shapes seasonally

Human change their decision every time

The moon is absent during in day

Where is it?

Find for it and you will found it

Cover by the sunshine

Find for it and you will found it

The love of your live

Right in front of you

To the moon we swear to be together for eternity

Like the moon and the star

nimi

Cant smile by Barry

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Onak Ranjau Berduri

Pemandangan hijau sepanjang perjalanan pulang saya ke muadzam melekat di hati. Ketenangan itu akhirnya dapat saya tafsirkan. Hati menjadi puas. Minda mengenang keluarga tersayang. Ramai orang slh erti akan kehidupan. Ramai orang mengadu akan kepayahan mereka. Mengapa ingin pandang pada hujan shj,jika kalau kesudahannya ialah pelangi?

Tangisan yang kluar tanpa amaran. Ketawa dan senyum membawa seribu makna. Perasaan sering bersilih ganti tanpa dirancang. Awan biru sengaja memerli kita. Lihatlah kecantikkan langit!Owh, bahagianya....

My favourite ones

As I seldom keep it to myself,now I will like to express my likes. I always love art. I like to see beau art works, hear poetic songs and read nice writtings. They just capture my attention with such works. I like boonga shoes. I like Jane Austen, A Samad, Mitch Albom, and William Shakespeares .

Boongahoes or any handprinted products are my favourite ones. I like to see them and had always wish to own them. Currently, I just design a handprinted bag and it will be ready to use by the end of this month. I cant wait.

Jane Austen,who is she? She is a legend writer. She wrote with deep emotions. I seldom cried when reading her writtings. She expressed love in different kind. Her novel that I love most is "Pride and Prejudice". Her love life in reality was a bitter ones and I must say that I solute her for thinking positively. She worked hard to prove that woman can writes too. This is due to the era she live gave priority to men. She had a screen movie dedicated just for her.

A Samad is a sasterwan Negara. He opens my mind. He give a chance for me to look things at different view. I pay respect towards him.

Lastly is Mitch Album. Mitch Albom is a very famous writer. He wrote "Tuesdays With Morrie",which now you can also watch in movie. Tuesdays with Morries is a true story and fills with emotion. Mitch Albom is both novelist and columnist. I also like "For one more day" by him.

the untitle poem

I had always love to write poem. I write based on my feelings and sometimes based on my surroundings. However, this poem is the unusual ones as I cant really think of the right title.Hence, I just leave the title all blank.

Flower scent blew inside the window

I purposely let the windowsill open wide

And so I can

Watch the bird flew freely

I sit carefully

I drew a picture

It turns out to be just a blank page

The sky was golden

The sun is smiling

Teasing me

How can I smile when I am despair?

I whisper my pain towards the wind

The flower buds blew everywhere

The scene was wonderful

Ever since then

I dedicated my soul to the wind

With a hope my unrest soul will finally find peace

-nimi-

Like a bird

Sunshine through the window awakens me. My hometown will be first thought. I dream of going to cloud nine. I was plucking a bouquet of flower untill I heard crying. It comes from down there. It comes from inside. I woke up realizing it was just a nightmare and cant continues my sleep ever since then.

I sing a song out loud. I dance,sometimes I dance along to the music and sometimes I just dance without thinking. Similarly to life, sometimes I follow the rules of life and sometimes I just live. I spread my wings and fly from places to other places. I rarely go back. I am like a bird. Everyone too. We need someone to teach us to fly,survival skills when small and when times goes on we can fly on our own. We choose where to go by ourselves. Birds,fly on!